When you look back on your life, what do you see? “I wish I would have done that” or “I wish this situation would have turned out differently/better!” Is it the “guilt complex?” Why do we fell bad about ourselves, what we have or have not done? Where does “guilt” come from? More specifically, where does YOUR guilt come from? I’m not sure if it is a part of the healing/recovery process for those with TBI, or just my own thoughts. I feel “guilty” about getting into a car accident. I feel “guilty” about the pain and stress and hardships I have “brought upon” my friends and family. Could I have avoided this accident? Did I fall asleep? Did I get distracted by something, like a deer? The electric connections in my brain have not allowed me to recall anything about the accident, or days and months prior to the incident, for that matter. Maybe one day it will all come back to me. Maybe there will never been a “one day.” I have to accept this fact and not dwell on it. I thank God and my friends and family that I am alive, and, as a cool and wonderful bonus, I re-learned how to walk and talk and read and write. So, I have THAT going for me! I am getting through this, one day at a time, with help and support from all of you! There are not any “first-second-third place” trophies. I have a “participation trophy,” and I AM OKAY WITH THAT! Being an “active participant” in my own life each and every day is my montra. These are my rambiling thoughts for this morning. I hope all of you have a wonderful Wednesday! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog!